Sugar free no more? Intentions and follow up.

    I am sitting at McDonald's and realized that summer is almost here. Eighteen months ago I made a decision to stop eating sugar but I did not blog about it. I was successful for about three months, lost 20 pounds and felt better than I can ever remember.

    But at month two I dislocated my shoulder hiking and then in month three I had my appendix out. No big deal right? Afterall, by month three my diet was solid and I no longer had the sugar craves. I thought I could test the waters again with a little sugar. Boy, was I wrong! Since then I have not been able to put any sugar free time together. I have not been sugar sober for more that three or four days at a time without massive relapse. It does not help that I love to cook and bake and take food photos and post on Facebook. I am sick.

    Today I checked out my blogs and saw a very common pattern of intentions with no follow up. I call it Monday Self-Help Blues. I hit a big motivational seminar, listen to motivational CD or maybe walk on some fire and I feel like my life is going to change forever but sadly as soon as I get home it is business as usual. Did I waste the money? Was I defrauded? Was is a big hype and scam? Or did I not execute? Maybe I did for a day or a week or a month but then I quit. What would have happened if I just did not quit? Was Bill Gates a quitter? Steve Jobs? Thomas Edison? Colonel Sanders? How about the NASA engineers trying to get a man on the moon?

I just had a McDonald's chocolate dipped cone and two cookies. The cone looked so good I gave him the money and forgot to get change. Now I am eating a quarter pounder and fries and a coke. If you hang around the barbershop you're bound to get a haircut.

I remember the first week of sugar detox and it was not so fun. I admit it felt bad. But it was only a week or two and I was fine after that. Sure, I missed it once in awhile because after all I have been addicted to it all my life. I know how bad I feel on sugar and realize I must quit so I am going big tonight and then starting new tomorrow! It is over! My name is Paul and I struggle with sugar.